Aiden Shaw shares the story of his private struggles with sex, drugs, and an unfulfilled quest for love. He describes his unsuccessful relationships, his Irish Catholic beginning, his HIV-positive status, and his recovery from a near-fatal car crash.

The star of more than fifty adult films, Aiden Shaw ranks as one of gay porn's all-time favourite performers. His films from Falcon, Catalina, and Studio 200 have brought him international celebrity, including the honour of having Sex and the City writers name their Aiden Shaw character after him. Now, for the first time, the real Aiden Shaw share in unsparing detail his personal stories about the sex and drugs that fuelled his private life. However, the book also profoundly follows him through a course of rocky and unfufilling relationships. As Shaw eloquently and often humorously points out, the romantic life of an adult film superstar can be lonely and wanting for love. But not only in the form of a significant other - also love from within himself. The book is equally moving for his revelation about his Irish Catholic upbringing, his open HIV-positive status and his recovery from a near-fatal car accident that left him paralysed temporarily.

Aiden Shaw is the author of three novels. He divides his time between New York and London.